I figured it out

I'm a walking contradiction.
Actually, I'm not just one contradiction, I'm many.
I'm shy, but actually, many of my friends would call me loud.
I don't care what people think (or so I say).
When I want something, I find a way to get it, problem is, I don't seem to know what I want.
I'm straightforward and I don't like drama, but actually, I love gossip and I manipulate people.
I'm always myself, I don't put on an act, but how can I be myself if I don't know what myself is?
From this, it seems one thing is clear.
I think too much.
But wait, is there such a thing as thinking too much?

11:53 PM, 26 May, 2006. Peyton's official state of mind.